I’ve let everyone down, I can’t hold my breath
I wish it would all end now, I never thought I’d wish for death.
Friendships ruined and trust shattered
I can’t even look at people now, not without feeling utterly battered.
Voices of warning, shame and regret
I can’t take any more, this much I can bet.
Relationships broken and respect lost
I feel like my own ghost of the past.
I’m sorry, I didn’t mean for anyone to get hurt
I’m just so sick of myself and of feeling like dirt.
Don’t leave me, please, I swear I’ll change
I know you hate me; you want me gone? Well that I can arrange.
It’s not them, it’s me, they did no wrong
You were right to scold me, I trust you and you knew all along…
Some things in life cannot be fixed. They can only be carried.